Back to the grindstone today.
It’s incredible how much a couple of weeks off work can do for you. I have played with my kids and spent valuable time with them and they cried last night upon hearing I had to go back. As a hard nosed disciplinarian, it warms my heart that my kids love me in spite of how short I fall in being gentle with them sometimes. My kids know i care for them deeply and they know I love them beyond words and last night was a testament to that, and I am thankful to God for the firm hugs and sentimental words from them.
It was encouraging to see my wife post her heart on Instagram last night about how much I will be missed as she transitions back to caring for the kids while I am away. It gave me a renewed sense of purpose and meaning in my home life. To be honest, it was the first time I took the notion of praying with my wife in a long time, and it felt necessary. It felt right. It felt loving. It felt real.
Am I ready to go back? Not really, but in some aspects I am. My family may need me at home, but they also need me to provide. They may need me to interact and play and wrestle and sleep and teach them, but they also need me to make better use of the time I have with them when I am not at work. My family may need me to do menial tasks around the house, but they also need me to allow them to learn through failure and give them some space and grace to complete these things on their own. And when it’s all said and done, they may need the extra set of hands when four young kids and a newborn have so many demands that one parent isnt enough, but we also need to understand that God’s hand is in every bit of it and He has us right where He wants us. The work that began in us, where we are right now, He will see it to completion. Thank The Lord that is in His almighty and perfect hands and not mine.
May we all remember the blessings we have in front of us as we put the holiday season to rest, and May we all remember that He is in complete control and He has the whole world in His hands.
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